Friends (and other people too) ask me what I'm going to do after graduation.  I have the general idea, but... I don't really know.  I mean, the plan is to save up at least $2000 then move up to NY and find a job somehow and keep saving money until Angelo graduates, and then we get the heck out of Buffalo, and all of NY and go be somewhere else.  That's all I really know.  From there, it turns into a future that is still a dream to me.  It seems too distant, too far-off, to be a reality, so it's hard to imagine where I will be in that place.

I just hope that things will go well.  I know things won't be perfect, but I want them to go well.  I don't care about finding the perfect job, but I'd like to find one that makes me at least a little happy.  I don't care about finding the perfect apartment, but I'd like to find one that makes me feel somewhat comfortable.  I don't care where in the world I am, I just want to be there with Angelo.

My future is uncertain.  I just have to accept that, and be able to deal with things as they come.  It doesn't mean I have no control over what's going on.  I just have to keep reminding myself of that.

I'm scared, though, about all of these changes that are just around the corner.  But more than that, I'm glad that this time, I don't have to face them alone.

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