I threw everything off of my bed, and I'm still wearing my hat.  I want right now to just crawl into my bed, with my cute pants and hat on, just like I am now, and curl up into a ball.  I want to cuddle Jaquinot tight tight tight and cry a little, and then drift off to a wonderful place where today doesn't even exist.  And when I wake up in the morning, I want tomorrow to be like every other tomorrow after a bad day, where yesterday is forgotten.

and the funny thing is, nothing majorly bad happened.  i got upset about my car.  what a stupid reason to be depressed.  but i am none-the-less, so i guess i'll just go with it for now.  i know that tomorrow i won't be sad.  is that how i can go on living?  yes, it is.  i continue living because of faith, because i believe that tomorrow exists.  because i believe that tomorrow things will be better.  how did i ever get to be so naive?

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