I must enjoy being depressed.  That's the only explanation I can think of.  And what's weird, is that I'm probably right.  I'm almost sure that I am.  I added her name to my buddy list again.  I visited his webpage again.  I can't get these people out of my fucking head.  What the fuck is wrong with me?!?!  WHY DO I STILL CARE?!?!!  Even when it hurts so much, even when it's been almost 3 years, i still care!!

And I'm sure they don't give a damn.

i think that's what hurts most.

i hate myself for being this way.  i hate myself for not being able to let go.  i wish i could go back and do it all over again.  but then, heh, if wishes were fishes....

if i keep going with this, i'm going to snap.  so i'm just going to go to bed now.

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