I've come to my decision, for the most part, on what to do about things.  I am grateful for Brad's apology.  And I am grateful for the chance to apologize to him.  But I feel that that is, and should be, the extent of it.  I think I resigned myself, long ago (or perhaps not-so-long-ago), to the fact that we will never be friends again (any of them, I mean, not just Brad).  I think it's too late.  No, I know it's too late.  I'm a forgiving person.  Angelo says I'm too forgiving (he's mostly right).  And, indeed, I have forgiven Brad, have forgiven all of them.  But that's all there is to it.  Just the forgiveness, not the desire to 'patch things up' or try to be 'friends' again, and so on.  The forgiveness is there, and that is the final page of the story.  So, to Brad if you read this, Good-Bye.  Thank-You, again, for the apology; I wish you well.  It's not that I won't ever talk to you again, it's just that I won't seek you out.  *shrugs*  That is the choice I have made.  And, really, it's the choice that we all made, nearly 3 years ago.

Today at work I got all of my breaks and my lunch right on time.  I wonder if they were feeling guilty.

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