I decided last night that I was going to IM Jess.  So tonight I did, and we're talking right now.  O.o;;  THIS IS SO FUCKED UP!!  And yet... I like it.  Is life really this simple, and it's just me who makes it complicated??  MY GOD, if I'd known it was this easy before, I wouldn't have put myself through Hell.  O.o;;

But anyway... we started with small talk, some stuff about Brad, then moved onto general stuff (Sailormoon of course, lol).  Nothing too deep.  Just... stuff.  I'm happy, though.  Glad I talked to her, glad I didn't lose courage.  Maybe things will be ok?

Kasandora: hey... I just wanted to say I'm sorry for what happened between us. I know I did some things that caused a lot of pain, and I apologize. I know you'll probably still not want to talk to me, but I do wish you would reconsider. Thanks for at least reading this.
Isil Elen: it's been what, 2 years? Almost 3?
Kasandora: 3 years on January/February.
Isil Elen: that's long enough to deserve a second chance
Isil Elen: it's what I gave Chris
Kasandora: .....
Kasandora: *was expecting you to tell me to leave you alone*
Kasandora: O.o;;;;
Kasandora: O.o;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
Isil Elen: *shrugs* I almost didn't allow your IM
Kasandora: I would have understood if you didn't.

and conversation ensues... and I feel good about all of this.  3 people who were important to me, lost to me because of my mistakes, have now re-entered my life.  This makes me very happy.  It's as if a rainbow is shining in my soul.  It feels so warm...

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